Not even sure why I bother much anymore. Just as soon as I get things in my head clear they get all jumbled up again. Been talking to a few people about the problems as I see them and it seems to have helped a little bit. Well I thought it was helping. This not getting much sleep at night is really starting to take a more visible toll on how I am seeing things. I was talking to Jackie the other night and for a few minutes things actually seemed so bad that I just didn't care to go on anymore. After talking with her about what all has been bothering me I feel a little better. I am really thankful for friends like her.
Finally got to sit down and talk to Crystal about stuff today. Her medical problems really have her concerned. Not so much about herself as what it is going to do to her kids. I feel bad for her but there isn't anything I can do to help it seems.
It's late now, I am gonna go lay down and try to sleep. Maybe this weekend I will just crawl in here when I wake up during the night instead of trying to get back to sleep. Maybe that is the key. Oh who am I kidding I know what the problem is. I just can't shut my brain off from wondering about how I can open people's eyes to the truth.
