June 2006 Archives

"A good time to start something new."

WoW has opened up character transfers and Mal'Ganis has now the best Horde and Alliance guilds in the game. We also got several other hardcore alliance pvp guilds, ugh, my ass hurts from the raping.

In other news it is time for something new, so step up and suggest something.

Okay so first of all, you've lost your fucking mind!

A visit from an old friend has caught me up on a good portion of the shit that has happened over the last few months. All I have to say on it all is; You have lost your fucking mind. I am also very upset/disturbed by the knowledge that everything about me personally has been spread around. In case you didn't know I am a very private person and I do have a sense of modesty, even though you don't seem have one. What did I ever do to deserve such trashing at your hands? It just sucks to be I guess, maybe one day I will learn my lesson and I won't get involved with people like you.

As I speed down hwy62 here I once again find myself reflecting on stuff that has happened and things that have been told to me that have happened. All I can really say is how the hell? Someone told me how they were tired of games and this and that and was looking for something more substantial, but ended up with more of the same. Do people like this person really know what they want or do they just want what someone else has? Does someone really know how to let go and let someone live their own life? Why are you so jealous? Are you threatened by the other people around so you feel you have to constantly be on guard? If this is the case then why would anyone want to stay? Get out and make a change or just accept what you currently have. My personal view on the situation is like that of a kid with a new toy. While the toy is new it is the best and only thing on earth, but the new has to wear off at some point. New can last a lifetime with work and tedious attention to details, but you can't see the larger picture. The love of a woman can motivate a man to amazing feats, only if he is smart enough to realize what he has. Those that fail to see what is right under their nose fail to capitalize on the opportunity only to realize the mistake when it is too late to rectify the situation. I am once again stunned to hear of a friend from my ignorant days make such a particular gesture with yet another person after just recently lambasting someone else for the same activity albeit on a different scale. I am also amused at how upon hearing the watered down version of this tale I was able to put most of the remaining pieces together without directly asking the questions outright. Having the opportunity to sit back and look over a situation from afar has given me a good amount of time to see how several interactions have come about. The personalities and habits of these people have become almost as clear to me as a pane of glass; it is like I can see what is about to happen beforehand. In a game of chess sometimes it is the pawn with the clearest view of the game. It has taken a while to find my place s a pawn, and even longer to accept it. I am, however, content in my role. One must never underestimate a pawn though, because a pawn can be anything given enough time to find the path to the other side.

I want something profound to say here but it really just is a rant trying to disguise my disappointment. Focus on the positives, just one short month away from our annual current river trip I have someone set to go and a backup in case of a repeat of last year. I feel bad for even asking for a backup but I am taking no chances this year. Alone sucks! Should i not need my backup I am working on a way to thank that person anyway for just agreeing to my insane request.

I will fix the formatting and spelling errors in this later. I have been pecking at this phone for about 30 - 45 minutes while driving and now my hands are sore and I lost my train of thought.

It has taken us a month an a half from our first comedy attempt to Saturday night when we finally downed the fierce internet dragon. lol internet dragon. Anyway it was a good time we had alot of laughs and people screamed over ventrillo like a pack of wild apes. (video 1) (video 2) What else is there... well I have been working on my php coding skills and have now done an automated news page for my guild. You can check it out here. It started out as this simple thing to just read out a post from phpBB and display it on the main page. Then I had to complicate it with making the quote / code sections act just like the forums and then finally making these nifty little [item] links work as well. I had to learn how to do queries to multiple databases in one document and some interesting loops. Also I did a quick script to do the banner rotation. It rotates every 15 seconds or so and the end user just sees a neat banner change effect. I guess that is it for now. I have another post coming shortly with some other news but I have to get out with my digital camera and take a few pictures first.

Have you ever just wanted to say fuck it? I mean just sit back look at the situation and be like screw this I am not dealing with this crap? Yeah.... Getting really tired of being that person that is just there when nobody else is around. I did finally get back around to answering an email that had been in my inbox for the last month though. Maybe I can finally call that sitation over. Life goes on, eat some cheese.